Holiday time

So, it's the end of December... families come together, whether it's around the Christmas tree or under the glowing lights of the Menorah. It's a lovely time because it's quiet, peaceful, gives us a chance to reflect on the past year, and a chance to look forward to the year ahead.

As I look back on where I was a year ago today, it was a tough place. Well no, let me rephrase that. It was a great place. I was in Hawaii with H and steppie. We were staying in a beautiful hotel in Wailea on Maui. We had gone snorkeling and seen the most amazing HUGE turtles. Life was good.

But it was also empty. We had been trying to get pregnant, and at the time it was month after month of well - disappointment. Little did I know that about a month later, I'd find out that my life as I knew it was going to change. Amazing how fast a year has gone by!

I am so grateful for the experience of the past year. I've been through so much, and have had the opportunity to grow exponentially. In my personal life (my experience with myself), my relationship with H, my family and friends, work, who I want to be, and how I want to get there. It's a bit scary to venture out asking these big questions of ourselves, especially when no one tells us "how to get there." But it's been a wonderful journey. And it keeps on going!

I have a wonderful family. I've mentioned before how grateful I feel to have been born to this family. So much unconditional love.

I have an incredible husband. I mean totally, amazingly, incredible. I literally look up at whatever higher power I have, almost on a daily basis, and thank god for having him in my life. He's not perfect, and god knows I'm not either, but he is just wonderful for me. It is such a blessing to be married to such a kind, easygoing, loving, supportive, successful man.

I have a beautiful daughter! Who celebrated (or rather, is celebrating) her first Hanukkah!


She's a sweet little thing...


who has filled my life with so much joy. She is sleeping so well at night now (it may just be a phase, but I'll take it!), and when I wake up before her (which is usually the case), I just can't wait to scoop her out of her crib and see that smiling, sweet, innocent face.

Note: it's not always so angelic. She's trying to take a nap right now and is fussing her head off.

Le sigh. Parenthood!